So lately I’ve been trying to figure out my life path and to be honest, I’m all over the place like
Sometimes I want to be a singer/dancer
other times it’s a politician
Then a talk show host
And the original idea screenwriter
So, considering how all over the place these careers are it’s obvious I need to pick one, right? I mean some people or could be all four, but I think I’m not one of them. I mean each has potential and would include something I enjoy.
Singer/Dancer: I love music, it’s my life plus I have written songs before. My entire life when I heard music I would always work it into a music video or story.
My future fantasies around this career usually arise whenever I watch an awards show and see the singer performing on stage, I just wish I could do the same. Of course, I’d be I control of how the performance goes. I’ve seen how the world idolized celebrities and values their opinion which is something I crave. However, I don’t know if I can sing well, I’ve only ever received positive feedback on my voice twice. Once from my friends in 7th grade and twice when I was in the High-school senior year by my friend. Whenever I post myself singing one Instagram, I say “my singing with my average voice. As for dancing well, I’ve only ever danced in my basement, by myself, yeah. However, I have been improving building up endurance as dancing is easier than cardio, and have successfully mimicked the dip and some of the dances from the “Chilin like a Villain” Music video as well as G.R.L. Vacation. I love dancing and would love to make a career out of it and improve although I don’t even know if can. I’ve come up with multiple songs, however, their mostly lyrics of choruses.
Although I might just want this career for the fame and the ability to show up to people of my past. A common scenario that often comes to mind when I’m fantasizing about being a singer is my senior project. The senior project fantasy is from my high-school, see seniors had to create or present a project of their choosing for their senior project. Now, in reality, I did a PowerPoint on why Community college is the better and 4 yr. which got me an A, so I’m not mad about it. However, in the fantasy, I say “this is a music video I created for a song I wrote” then play a video. The class (whom I don’t even remember most of, to be honest) is at first surprised “Amari making a music video singing and dancing, insane.” When I played the video, it’s never a song I wrote, it’s whatever I’m listening to on my phone usually, and the video that’s shown is often taking place in my high school, my house and on rare occasions my New-York spots. The boy band I came up with is in a few of them the point is as well as the four people group I came up with for the siren song TV shown, both groups with me as the black guy. It blows the class away cause my dancing on point and the songs catchy, and there is a fantasy within the fantasies where I and someone else (either a duet or group) interrupt the lunchroom to use it as a setting for a scene where we dance in a big room in front of a crowd.
I envy the kids on Disney and Nickelodeon even though I know it’s no were near as fun as it seems. Could I handle the actually work, the traveling, the stress of not being sure is this song would be as popular as the last one? Honestly, I’m young, and it’s something I’d love to do, but only a hand number of people in my life even know about this dream of mine, because I really embarrassed about it. I wonder if I’m as good a performer in real-life as I am in my head. There are few songs I listen to that don’t have me pictures myself as the artist, however the music video is always different. To be honest aside from posting a random video online I wouldn’t know where to start.
The Wannabe Writer 